its like scribbles, but thought form.

Summer you have been good to me so far. I'm very grateful that my summer hasn't been boring or anything. I guess what made it so great was the fact that I tried to stay off the computer. I couldn't stop watching TV, sorry. Guilty pleasure! But, I did start to work out and leave the house for a couple of hours in the afternoon.

I realized that I'm going to say "realize" a lot. This summer made me contemplate among the many aspects that I dealt with throughout the school year. Mainly, those that I tried to hide from myself. It's like the summer is preventing me from distorting tiny figures to shadows. I have to face what I have been fearing the most; actually admitting what I have been thinking. The funny thing about that is, it's clear in my mind but when I do try to tackle my phobia, someone stops me. And now my obstacle is to try to get over the hurdle and release what's on my mind. And that's pretty scary too. Think about it, after many failed attempts, I have to get back up and try again? Damn, this sounds like a song. Haha!

Other news, my mom finally realized that she never really paid much attention to me throughout middle school and high school. I was pretty surprised that she figured this out now, but when she suggested to give me more attention with homework and studying, I simply refused. I have been independent with everything involving school the minute I hit algebra 1, and this attention would only be a setback. She asked for my help with my sister, and I promised to help with anything she needed. I'll always be there for my sister. And my mom's had it tough too, so anything to help her, I got her. It's kinda weird, I'm anticipating my sisters changes as she moves onto high school. I hope she does better than I did. I do hope that she trusts me and asks for my advice. Aaaaah! She's making me smile, cause she's a really great kid and I totally love her and I only wish the best for her. Wow, I really do love my sister.

I really do feel like I'm maturing and changing for the good. To tell you the truth, I really do like these changes. I'm just hoping that everything will be able to follow me as I'm progressing.