emancipation

I don't know how clearly I can tell you how much I hate these individuals. They claim that I need to be a role model, that I need more responcibilities, I need to help around the house, I need to get better grades, I need to get my priorities straight, I need to study, I need to to do this and that. I'm fucking done listening to what the fuck you really have to tell me. Because with you, you are all words, no play. Why don't you fucking put your money where your mouth is? Oh wait, you can't? That's right. You never have a justified answer for the things that you take away from me or want me to do.

When did my study habits become yours? Why do I have to study how you used to. I mean, damn I'm my own person I can do whatever I feel like doing caaaause it's benefiting me. So you can shut the fuck up. "You can't study with the TV on". Actually, I'm doing homework. And I need noise to do homework or I get headaches. I know this is strange, but that is my homework habit. I study in my room, ALONE. I don't need you disturbing me saying I need to do this and that, I need to eat. Shut the fuck up. First you tell me to study, now I have to keep that on hold and eat? I'll eat when my fucking stomach wants me to eat. I study late, I study for a long time with my friend on the phone. And if that's not studying or if that's not right, I don't understand where you are coming from.

Oh and when did not going to prom become an answer when I don't have good grades. Last time I checked I had pretty decent grades. No C's. I have 4 A's and 2 B's. That's not good? Daaaamn, let me change my mind set then. I thought that was good, but I guess I'm wrong since you tell me I'm wrong. That's what you want me to believe right? I feel like you are a walking, talking, breathing propoganda machine. All you do is fill my head with lies. Fill my head with hope destroying monsters. I can't do this, why? Cause you said so. Oh this is wrong, why? Cause you said so. Fuck that, I want to destroy your system. You tell me that I need to be independent, that I need to support my family one day. Why can't you listen to me? Why can't you give a damn about anything I want to do or want to say.

I have to say that you were pretty nice at one time. Actually one of them was really nice. But they changed. They think that boys interfer with my learning style. They think that this boy is destroying me. I'm obsessed, please. I feel like he, and the rest of my friends are the only one that really do care about me. They listen to me. And what do you do, say I don't fucking respect you? I do. Don't I do everything you say? I guess being with someone I love is not what you want, but it's what I want and I'm really done listening to the fuck that you want me to do. There was a time that they bought me whatever I wanted. But they never let me out. When I hit high school I wanted to explore the world. But they kept me locked up, grounded. I hate it. Looking back at it, I see what I did wrong. Speak out. But isn't that what I should do? Isn't that a part of the first ammendemnt? Am I wrong? My sister can do anything she wants. She's out right now. She sleeps over, sneaks out, gets caught, and they don't do shit. Thaaaanks JERKS. All I can do now is sleep and stay in my room and do hw. I don't even want to talk to them anymore.

I really wish that I could emancipate my parents. Damn, I'd be so free from their shit. I could do whatever I wanted to do. I could do whats best for me. These restrictions aren't helping me, they are worsening the whole situation. The whole me. I'd love to get away.