mind fucked

I've been pretty sad lately. I honestly feel like I don't give myself enough credit. There are days that I feel like I've been personally attacked, and I just let it happen. I need to stop. And I wonder why sometimes I'm insecure, now I know. I don't deserve to be treated like I am right now. I notice that I constantly come up with excuses to be treated the way that I am. I hate it. And things that I've been hearing make no sense what so ever. I need to realize that I am worth something. I've been independent and providing security for myself. I haven't depended on anyone in a long time. I don't feel like I can count on anyone these days. No offence to people I do love, but it's hard. I have my guard up.